My Bipolar is taking over me

I feel like I am losing all control of my emotions and I feel like i am losing all my friends and it seems like every one hates me.. I feel so alone and I don't know what to do.. i am taking medicine and they just don't seem to be working.. I feel like my life is falling apart and i have no control.. I have a good job making OK money I have a great boyfriend and my daughter is my life.. I have been getting along with my mom i really have no reason for any of these problems to be happening.. I know that bipolar comes and goes and reacts to everyone differently but why now.. I feel weird around a lot of people and at work i think people are talking about me i don't know if they really are but i think they are.. today i seen my dad he always makes me feel better but today i told him that i missed him because i have not seen him since Christmas eve and he didn't say anything.. and he tells me he loves me but when were together he doesn't hug me or talk about anything that matters to me he talks about his work and my sister that i never seen and how she is just like me.. and that she acts just like me when i was a little kid and about how how is spoils her because he never got the chance to do anything for me.. he asks about my daughter but he really doesn't care.. I feel bad for my mother she doesn't know how to deal with the fact that my bipolar is back i can tell she is scared for me and that she knows that the demon is back and she knows i cant control it.. my mother has gone threw so much with me and my issues i don't want her to have to go threw it again.. She doesn't relies that when she says i am going bipolar again that it hurts or when she calls me crazy.. I hate being like this but i have no control.. All day at work i try to not cry but it is so hard i feel like crying all the time and i think some people can sense something is wrong with me so they keep their distance and it bothers me so much.. I have so much on my mind.. Jaqulynne's father is being a wicked dick not paying child support and he does not relies that I so had it and if he keeps messing with me i am going to take him back to court and make him pay for Jaqulynne's health insurance and wicked screw him over.. lets see what else is bother me I am my period so bad I just keep bleeding.. I just want to sleep all the time because that's the only time i have no worries and i am not crying i cry my self to sleep.... well i guess i will end for now i hope that i will have a better day tomorrow